Thoughts are out of ma control n every time i am idle it creeps in,they say learn frm ur mistakes but can loving someone be a mistake ?
Still figuring out wht love is ......not able of seeing someone in pain?..cant spend a min without thinking of him...or just lying to not end a relationship.
Taken drastic decisins in life ...n may be the wrong ones..i here by regret it all.
I cannot turn the past in ma favour...nor can i heal the wonds of the person all i can do is repent n ask for forgiveness.
Just to know tht he must be happy gives me joy n thinking wht i did just hurts the very next moment.
Always got wht i wanted may be i never deserved it. ..may be i had to learn ma lesson wht ever itwas,i have stoped valuing life...its not important for me to live..it seems life less just living coz i am breathing no goal to achive nothing to do ..and today i decide to write down wht all i did remember all ma mistakes n be happy for wht i have...lets see till where i can go .
